I’m back!

Hey, guys. I know I’ve been gone for a super long time. So, I’ll try to get you up to speed as best as I can.

Well, the initial reason for my absence was that back in the late summer of last year, a large flood came to my area of residence. We were without Internet for a month or so and my in law’s house is going through a remodeling stage. At the time, I also had an overabundance of freelance work to do. Needless to say, vlogging and blogging was put on the back burner.  My Youtube channel hasn’t been updated in forever either. I WILL get on that one day.

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But here’s the better news. We have gotten our own place! That’s right! Me, hubby, and his brother have moved into a house. It’s a rental, but you know, baby steps. We had the Internet put in last week. So, I’ll probably be around a lot more.

That is pretty much the short version of what has been happening. I’ve also made a decision. I will finally buckle down and try a hand at writing a novel. Won’t give out too many details about that at the moment. But I will tell you that it is in its infant stages. As in, I am writing character details and such things in my journal. I figured that would be a good place to start.

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Well, I guess that’s it for now. I look forward to talking to you guys again.

Oh wait! I got a new puppy!

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Her name is Myrtle.

 

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A Very Special Product Review Post: Happy Three Years!

Hello everyone! Today marks the third year anniversary of the day my fiance and I started dating. We celebrated yesterday by going to the huge mall in our city, unfortunately, the trip was cut short by a very annoying stomach bug that decided to infect me. Ironically, it hit me right after Michael (fiance) bought me my anniversary present. But more about the present later.

Naturally, I got all dolled up for the occasion and I got to try on a lot of my new goodies, so I’m just going to put them in one razor review! Here we go!

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E.L.F. Retractable Kabuki Brush

E.L.F. has a great line of products and their prices are very affordable. I recently purchased a new kabuki brush, but I saw this one at Target and since it was “retractable,” I wanted to give it a try. This E.L.F. brush blows my Walmart bought one right out of the water!

I was able to put on my translucent powder, foundation powder, and blush all just using this one brush! It blended wonderfully and made me look great! I also loved the retractable feature because it will stay cleaner and it is also vegan! Win, win!

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AddictiveCosmetics Finishing Translucent Powder in Pearl

This stuff is wonderful and now is one of my favorite make-up supplies. I put it on before applying foundation for hold and then after the foundation because the pearl gives it a nice glow finish. I even sprinkled some over my lipstick and it HELD! Of course, I chose AddictiveCosmetics on Etsy because of her stance on making her items vegan. I can’t wait to try it on eyeliner to see if it holds. I just wasn’t up to wearing any yesterday.

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E.L.F. Lengthening and Defining Mascara

Truth be told, I don’t really need a lengthening and defining mascara because I have long lashes, but this E.L.F. brand is extremely easy for me to use with my motor skill problems due to cerebral palsy. I always have trouble using mascara and eyeliner, but this was great and made me look good!

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AddictiveCosmetics FIXIT Eye Shadow Primer

Just spray this on your eyelids and wait thirty seconds. I used this wrong by putting it on over the eye shadow, but guess what…it still worked! Best eye shadow primer I’ve ever used. My eye shadow stayed on great. I’ll use it right next time!

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Nyx Dewy Finish Make-Up Setting Spray

I bought this setting spray because I was sold on the promise of dew. It is more expensive than the E.L.F. one I have, but I do think it does make my make-up look a bit more glow like. I’ll do more experiments on both and update on which one I prefer.

Wow! How lucky was I that I loved all of this stuff? Now, I’m sure you guys are all wondering what my anniversary present was. You guys will all see how far my obsession goes. Michael bought me a whole line of skin care products from the Body Shop. I know, I know. I already have so much! But I talked to a clerk and explained my skin issues and she gave a recommendation. That review will be coming soon.

I may very well have rosacea because the dryness from it causes skin to itch. We’ll see how it goes. I felt so bad that he dropped $36 dollars for the kit and then had to take care of me all night!

Oh! I’m also employed now as a freelance writer! I start tomorrow. Guess what my first assignment is. SKINCARE. Hahahaaha!

I Promise I’m Not Dead and I’m Not For Sale

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Heh, I hope you guys like the Stone Temple Pilots reference. I haven’t been blogging these past few days because I took some time off to dedicate to job hunting. I never heard from that company that wanted the second interview, so it is safe to assume that they went with someone else. Bummer.

So far, things are looking up a bit. I did manage to find a few jobs I was qualified for that are in my field. I just applied for them yesterday, so we’ll see. So far, the only one I’ve heard back for is only a part time gig that is a little far, so it may not be worth it. I’m still going to do the phone interview and see if full time is possible.

A few goodies I ordered should be here today, so reviews will be coming soon. I haven’t really tried out the new supplies I bought at Target yet because I haven’t had any reason to wear make up and it is really hot outside. But if you guys remember one of my previous posts, I discovered I had eczema and not rosacea. I’ll be trying out the new face wash, lotion, and ointment soon. My translucent powder and eye shadow primer are almost here and the foundation I picked out of the three is on its way!

I know it seems like I buy a lot of stuff for the sake of beauty, but I actually buy everything in a certain price range and make sure my bills are paid off first. But lately, I have been worried about our financial status. I’m still unemployed and my fiance is at a dead end job, However, he is getting tutoring for his GED and has been working very hard at it. And at least, I’m getting call backs, right?

Despite all that, I still find myself getting depressed at times. I really hope we can get at a better place soon. Especially because my fiance’s dad just informed us that their rent house will be available in a month. His current tenants are moving out. He said he would even lower the price for us (me. my fiance, and his brother). If I can get a job soon, MAYBE we could do it. But right now, it’s just not feasible.

Last night was wonderful though. My fiance and I stayed up and watched a couple of hours worth of Daria. We’re almost done with the series and it’s great to share something that is so near and dear to me with him. We laughed at my hero’s sarcastic wit and cuddled. That show will forever be in my heart as a childhood through adult relic.

Can’t wait to start reviewing again.

Job Interview #2 and the e.l.f. Mist and Set Spray Review

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Today, I had another job interview and it went really well. I was told upon leaving that I was wanted for a second interview. The hiring manager said that if I didn’t hear from them in the late afternoon, then I would hear from them by morning. Well, no call today. Better keep my ringer on tonight!

Of course, I had to make myself all pretty and apply make up. I really hate the foundation I use now, which is funny because I use to love it. But ever since I noticed the redness in one side of my face, it just doesn’t cover well. I also miss powder foundations. I switched from Bare Minerals to e.l.f.’s flawless liquid foundation (what I’m currently using) because I heard from a make up artist friend of mine that it (Bare Minerals) wasn’t good for your skin.

But the powders made my face look so good! I had tried other powder foundations after that, but the coverage was always horrible. Luckily, I ordered some powder foundation samples from a vegan cosmetics maker on Etsy. I can’t wait to review them!

Until then, I have to use up my e.l.f flawless liquid foundation and I also had the chance to properly use my new e.l.f. Mist and Set Spray. This time I sprayed it with the proper distance from my face and it kept my make up fairly fresh. The biggest problem is with my eye make up. It never wants to stay on my face! I ordered a vegan eye shadow primer from the same Etsy store as the foundation, so hopefully that will make my eye shadow stay. But I’ll still have the eye liner to deal with. It didn’t hold up well today. Anyone have any tips?

As for the Mist and Set, it does a good enough job. My only concern with it is that it’s a small bottle. However, the price is right at $3. However, I did mention in another post that I bought another bottle of rose water that can serve multiple purposes. When I run out of Mist and Set, I am going to try it out as a make up setter. It’s already going to get a rave review on being a toner alone! That stuff is razor!

Aside from all that, after the interview the fiance and I went out to eat. We were all giggly in the parking lot and flirty with each other. It felt so great. Which was good because the food was lousy. I felt so bad because I suggested the restaurant! But all was well because we came home and watched Daria and flirted with each other until he had to go to work.

I think that’s what we need to do. Try as hard as we can to make time for each other alone. We go out friends a lot and it can be difficult. We need the time to talk seriously, flirt, and just be goofy. I think I’ll ask him if he wants to watch the Last Unicorn tonight.

A Thrift Store Adventure With Some Reviews Thrown In

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Yesterday, the fiance and I decided to go on a one-on-one date. This is something we hadn’t done in a good while. We’ve recently been invited on many double and triple dates with our friends, but sometimes it’s just nice to go out just the two of us. However, this date turned out to be a real drag.

I spent a lot of time in the bathroom trying to make myself look razor (it’s my slang for cool, but I could substitute it for beautiful too). I chose a little black and grey striped dress that stops just past my knees. It’s a little flirty without being revealing. My floral Doc Martens really paired well with the dress

I did something a little different with my eye make-up. I applied the usual mascara with black eyeliner, only this eyeliner had a little glitter in it. I don’t wear it often, but I busted out my silver eye shadow pen from e.l.f. I have to say the results looked pretty razor.

Just as I was about to try out my new bottle of e.l.f.’s mist and set spray, he poked his head into the bathroom and said my eyes looked sexy. I smiled somewhat, usually I would be thrilled with the compliment, but lately the passion in our relationship has fizzled out a bit. I was hoping that this may lead to some cuddles later.

The e.l.f. mist and set spray set is supposed to lock and seal in your make up for the day, but of course I messed it up on my first attempt. I sprayed it way too close to my face and ended up messing up my eyes. Needless to say, I had to redo it. I’ll write a more in depth review on it when I get it right.

I don’t know for sure, but I think most guys may hate it when we wear lipstick. I know my fiance hates it when I make his lips sticky when we kiss. As I was looking in the mirror, I realized I didn’t want to put any color on my lips. My natural lip color would go well with what I did with my make up. Of course, I would need to keep my lips moisturized and nice and glossy.

Recently, I purchased a vegan lip balm from an Etsy shop. I bought it in the flavor “Rose Candy” and I love it! It smells wonderful, feels great, and makes my natural lip shade glossy. Here’s a link to it:Rose Candy Lip Balm. I really want to try the Whiskey Sugar and Whiskey Honey ones next. I think my fiance would really like those.

Once I was all set, we went to our nearest Goodwill store. I love thrift store shopping! You would be amazed at what you could find there. There wasn’t much on clothes there. I only managed to find one skirt. It’s black with lots of white circles stitched in. I liked it. It was very different.

The real deals I found were in the CDs and DVDs. I managed to find:

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I have been itching to get the Reality Bites soundtrack. I love the grunge and alternative era of the nineties, Ethan Hawke, and Winona Ryder. I owe tons of Ethan Hawke films and his novels. He’s my biggest actor crush next to Joshua Jackson (Pacey of Dawson’s Creek). Ethan even sings on the soundtrack!

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I now owe the movie. I loved it. I want to read the book, but haven’t gotten it yet.

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My fiance’s never seen it. So, I’ll introduce it to him once we finish Daria. Can you believe he had never seen Daria? That was a staple of my childhood.

But alas, most of our date consisted of us being separated to look for own items. I was under the impression we were going to do more, but he didn’t want to go to dinner. If I knew we were only going to spend a couple of hours at a thrift store, I probably wouldn’t have gotten all made up because of the hot sun.

Lately, there seems to be no romance and he seems so disinterested in me. I hate to say it but I even hiked up my dress while we were watching Empire Records. Just to get a little attention. Yeah, I felt like Cory.

The First Post Challenge

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So, this morning I was nominated by the lovely lady at A Caffeinated Blog to do the First Post Challenge! Thank you so much!

The rules:

  • link your first post
  • name the type of the post
  • explain why this was your first post (reason for writing)
  • nominate fellow bloggers to participate in the challenge

I am just going to copy and paste my first post.

It’s my first post, yay!  I guess I should start with what possessed me to do this and what this blog will be about and what not.  The other day I was sitting with my godmother at the kitchen table when she made the remark that I should make a blog.  Truth be told, I have made several blogs.  Just like millions of other people on this Earth, I never kept up with them.  Quite frankly though, a blog sounded like a good idea; it would keep me on top of my writing and I could shamelessly plug the articles for my job.  But what to write about?

Well, my favorite thing in the world is actually a person. Tee Hee. ^_^   I was also inspired by another blog that I follow called A Diary of Dating (http://howitwassupposedtobe.wordpress.com/).  This wonderfully written blog is about a young woman that has been chronicling her love/dating life in hopes of one day meeting her future husband.  So I got to thinking; Hmmm, I believe I already found mine.  I could write all about our exploits together up till our wedding day and then I could start a whole new blog about our married life and why I had to explain to his mom why I hit him with that frying pan.  I know what you’re thinking now.  Well, what if we break up?  I can always trash this blog and start a new one. ^-^

I’ll probably post up some other things about my life too.  These things will probably include my life as a college student since my graduation comes in May.  Then hopefully, I’ll get into grad school and I can write on that misery.  I write articles for a magazine in my spare time and I’ll post up links to that when I can.  I might even post up some of my own written works.

Now a little bit about myself, I am in a wheelchair with a condition known as Cerebral Palsy.  And yes, it does affect the brain.  But in my case, it only affects the part of my brain that enables me to walk on my own.  I’m a writer, so naturally I’m also English major.  I love 90s alternative and grunge.  I did steal the title of my blog from an Everclear song.

Well that’s all for now.  I know I should have probably started this blog with how I met my future hubby.  But that will come at a later date.  I need to get this blog looking better.  My man will also have to keep me in line on updating this thing as well.

This was actually re-posted from my original blogs on Blogger and Tumblr. But I just couldn’t get the readers I wanted on either site. So, I moved to WordPress and never looked back! It was basically just introducing myself and why I chose t start a blog.

Now I nominate:

A Happy Accident?

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Yesterday, in an attempt to do something different, spend time with my fiance, get him away from the video games for a while, and work on cooking skills; I enlisted his help in making “vegan blueberry muffins.” I bought quite a bit of fruit for myself in order to combat the sugar cravings and came to the realization that there was no way I could eat that whole blueberry carton on my own before they would spoil. So, I thought baking muffins for the whole family would be nice, especially by giving them a healthier spin.

Well, I had a lot of blueberries, so I thought that doubling the recipe would be acceptable. Not my best idea. You see, I seem to fine with making meals, but baking has never been my strong suit. You should never double the salt. Needless to say, two teaspoons of salt gave them a somewhat salty flavor. But it was surprisingly still edible. They were kind of like a “sweet and salty” blueberry muffin batch.

My fiance actually loved them and when I woke up this morning there was only five left out of a dozen. Well, at least we can say we crossed a milestone together and produced a somewhat cooking fail.

“I Killed the Teen Dream:” My Fascination with Temptresses

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Yay! A pop culture post! The fiance and I are trying to solve some of our issues by spending more time together (this feat may soon become impossible if he picks up a second job). But we had a lot of fun earlier today screening a lesser known 1999 cult film, Jawbreaker. Jawbreaker was actually one of my favorite movies as a kid. It’s true that I was 9 when it came out, but I wasn’t really sheltered from films too much. It really depended on the situation. But yes, Jawbreaker is rated R.

The movie is about your standard high school popular girls clique (“the Flawless Four”) and what happens when one them is killed by the others through a failed birthday prank attempt. It bombed in the box office, but I ate it up once it was released at Blockbuster.

This could be a bad thing, but ever since I was a kid in the 90s I idolized the grungy girls and the seductive bitches from 90s teen films. I wanted to be a mix of the two. But I’m so awkward that I really am only the grunge part.

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I idolized Janet from Singles and Rachel from Disturbing Behavior (my first rated R movie in a theatre).

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But even though I hated her, I secretly wanted to be as sexy as Kathryn Merteuil from Cruel Intentions.

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But when it comes right down to it, I’m not even a Janet or a Rachel. I’m more like Andrea Marr from Girl (which is really okay because Dominique Swain is sooooo beautiful!). And she was also Lolita, another female temptress!

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Is it bad that I have a fascination with this type? That I want to be more like them? Of course, I would never cheat on my fiance or use sex as a way to ruin anybody. I admired these characters because they had so much confidence and admired their bodies. I’m a long way from the second, but I feel a sense of growing confidence upon clearing my skin.

As an undergrad, I was actually deemed a “hot girl” and actually got quite a few dates. Since then, I’ve gained some weight, but I’m working on that. Though I never was too skinny because I must admit I love my curves.

But maybe I can get my college flair back and work on spicing things up with my fiance by being more flirty. My friends used to refer to me as “the grunge goddess” and though it was embarrassing, I really miss the title. Maybe I can be that girl again. I had wanted so bad to be her since elementary school.

And yes, he did enjoy Jawbreaker.

Living the Dream, Well, Sort Of

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I’ve lived a very sheltered life because of my disability. You know how dads are. Very protective of their little girls. Because of this, while I was in college, I had always lived with my grandmother (who was pretty much my mother since my biological one was M.I.A.). Well, if you’ve read a earlier post I had written on my departure from graduate school, you’d know that was no longer the case.

I imagine my sheltered lifestyle was the reason for some of my more favorite reading choices. I really enjoy books where teenagers went off on their own and had adventures in parties, dating, and drugs. (Though I would not really dabble much with the last. But I got a taste of what it’s like by dating someone who did.) Or biographies of my favorite musicians who had to struggle at one point with different jobs and homes.

One of them that comes to mind is the Kurt Cobain biography I own, Heavier than Heaven. I always wished that I can go off on my own like him and struggle a bit to find my place. Of course, I think jobs were easier to come by then, as I am still looking. However, I am turning in an application tomorrow that looks promising.

I’m still living in someone else’s house (my fiance’s parents’), but they do offer a lot more freedom and less stress. But it is still an adventure by being able to come and go as I please. They even throw quite a lot of shindigs themselves.

So, I can honestly say that I am kind of living the dream of finding my way on my own. Though, my need to feel productive makes me crave a job, Therefore, I hope I get hired soon, so this depression will disappear.

Though there is a bit of trouble in paradise with my fiance and I. I find myself missing the very man I mentioned in this post. I heard through the grapevine that he had been asking about me. He was my first love and my first dabble with more experienced activities…

Really, the confession of something like this is grounds for a separation for most. But my fiance certainly does love me, as he will do anything do work this out. Even as far as saying that he has me and my ex doesn’t. So, as long as he has me, it doesn’t matter if I pine. It really makes me feel like a bitch.